I am going to get back into the swing of things with the thirty day writing challenge very soon, like in a couple of days probably. I'm hoping, if this weekend is nice, there will be lots of outdoors adventures. So I won't have time for any computer.
I think I'm a bit better. I've been on tablets for nearly a month now, and I've had a few good days of feeling perfectly normal. I'm not crying all day any more. Doing mundane everyday things isn't as difficult as it was a few weeks ago. I've had a few enjoyable adventures in the wilderness of Wicklow. It's going ok.
I still feel a bit pointless, and somedays going outside is almost impossible. But somedays, going outside is a thing that I can do without even thinking. Those days are nice. Today was not a nice day. I couldn't go outside today. But it was nicer than this day last week, for sure. And this day next week may be even nicer again.
My partner has been very supportive. I'm so glad I talked to him. I've never talked to him - or anyone really - about this stuff before. It's been good though. Just knowing that he knows is a weight lifted; maybe because I don't feel that I need to be normal in front if him as well as everyone else.
How are you all doing out there?
It's big world, and each and every one of us have problems and issues, and that's ok. A lot of us need each other to lean on, and that's ok too.
Look after yourselves, and each other.